Blah

My life.

Is full.

OF BLAHHHHHHH.

It is boring, it is mundane and I only ever have time to myself if I procrastinate LIKE WHOAH.

Life 3.0

Okay.

I'm okay.

That wasn't a Slendy breakdown or nothin', I was just...having some issues that I needed to get out my system, and that was it. I'm all better now.

On another not, I think I saw TDF last night. Outside my house. Hoooooo boy.

Life 2.0

I hate myself I wan to just hurt myself or kill myself so badly but I'm too much of a coward and too scred of the pain that I can't and I hate myself even more for it.

Do t suppose I could get zerosage to do it for me. Or maybe Arkady. Or Chase. I wish.

Life

Ugh. Freaking tired.

Okay. So. I got about...6 hours of sleep? Not too shabby, better than the usual. But now I'm studying for my IB Contemporary World History exam (which is on the 12th) and my brain is COMPLETELY. DEAD. I'm functioning on autopilot, it's so boring.

So I decided to read all of Arkady's blog. And now I'm trying to decide something.

Is Zerosage the one in the wrong, or is it Arkady? Are they both wrong, or both right and I simply can't see it?

HISTORY, WHY DO YOU MAKE ME QUESTION MY PHILOSPHIES GOD DANG IT I'MMA BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL-

Oh wait, then I'll have a bruise. No thanks. I'll bang my head against a pillow instead.

A Response/Happy Happy Joy Joy

Okay. I asked ZeroSage if there was a possibility of TDF (I like that acronym!) not existing in certain countries. He said:


"@Chloe - it's my belief that the monster is the internet's issue more than anywhere else. I'd assume that less developed countries are 'safer' if there is such a place."


....well. That means I am. So. Screwed.  Why? Simple.  

TAIWANESE PEOPLE ARE ON THE WEB 24/7.  Not even kidding.  And I live surrounded by about...3 different forests.

I'm so, so screwed.

Well, assuming He chooses to come after me.

Wait a second, do I even believe in him? Ugh. I hate my brain right now. Well, nothing to worry about until He does. So I'm going to go frolick. Bai.

...I use the word "well" a lot. Something to improve.

Also. MY BLOG POSTS ARE GETTING, LIKE, SUPER SRS. AND THIS IS ONLY DAY 3. NOT COOL.

So now I'm going to rant about Sound Horizon.

Sound Horizon is a "fantasy band" where their leader, Revo, composes the music and picks singers for each CD that they do. Each singer usually does specific characters for the CD, which tells a story along a linear timeline. Each CD is usually based on a certain culture, and that is obvious in the musical and lingual influences.

Now for fangirling time.

OMGSH THE NEW CD MARCHEN IS AMAZING. IT'S IN GERMANY AND IT'S JUST LIKE FFFF BECAUSE IT'S BASED ON FAIRYTALES, FRIGGIN FAIRYTALES MAN. WHICH IS SUPER AMAZING BECAUSE I LOVE THOSE AND THE MUSIC AND IT'S JUST UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHH I LOVE IT SO.

Okay. Rant done.

NOW MY BLOG ISN'T SERIOUS YAAAAY.

Wait, is that a good thing?

Reading material

Every blog, every comment I read, I being to believe in Him a little more.

Is this just a game, to try and make people like me believe? Or are these people actually suffering? I don't know what to think.

I need to stop posting so much in one day

Argh.

I just...

Dang it.

I think I might believe this whole thing now.

Does that mean I'm not safe?

Then again, I believed in it a couple of months ago...October, actually. And then crap happened, but...I've gotten over it since then and now...I think I believe in Him again.

My head hurts.